Sorry I have been MIA, I have been in the hospital for the last month fighting a blood infection after my latest round of chemo and then got pneumonia. Don't worry I am home and on the mend.
Here's some updates on the babies:
Keslegh: WOW she's moving all over the place. She is crawling and pulling herself up on everything. One baby being mobile is a lot of work, we can't even imagine when all three are moving. She is wearing 18 month clothing and wearing size 4 diapers. She currently has 7 teeth. Three on the bottom and four on top. She looks so funny with her top teeth because they aren't her front teeth they are her incisors so she looks like a vampire. Is taking three bottles a day and is eating finger foods.
Preston: Has two bottom teeth. Currently wearing 6-9 month clothing and wearing size four diapers. He is not crawling yet but is rolling everywhere he needs to go and should be there soon. Is taking three bottles a day and is eating baby food at every meal.
Gavin: Is soo close to crawling, we give it about a week or so. Currently he has two bottom teeth and we believe more are making their way in. He is wearing 9-12 month clothes. He is taking three bottles a day and eating baby food at every meal.
I had my CT scan this morning and went up to see my oncologist right after. He said this was one of the best scans he's seen in a long time. The smaller tumors are either gone or have shrunk and the larger tumor is hollowed out an no longer active. We are absolutely ecstatic about the news. I am hooked up to my chemo pump right now and couldn't be happier to have this toxic drug going into my body because it's working!
Thank you again for all your prayers...they worked!
Since the babies started eating solids we have been making all their food with organic vegetables. This past weekend we had a baby food making marathon! We made peas & carrots, peas, green beans, pears, apples, and peaches. The vegetables were cooked and then pureed. The fruits were baked and then pureed. I then put them into ice cube trays and froze them. Each day we will thaw a couple ice cubes of fruits or veggies and feed them to the babies.
All three babies are successfully sleeping unswaddled!!!
Kesleigh is still waking a few times a night and just needs to be soothed a bit but goes right back to sleep. Not sure what that's all about but whatever. The boys are sleep champs!! We are getting a set schedule down for naps and for the most part (except Kesleigh) I can put them down at 8:30am to nap. Kesleigh just doesn't seem to need as much sleep during the day.
My mom brought them to our last day of school last week so everyone could see them...wow were we a spectacle for all:)
I seriously cannot believe they are 7 months old. Kesleigh is sleeping w/o her swaddle!!I thought for awhile there she would go to college swaddled:)Kesleigh and Gavin are both sitting up w/o help. Little man Preston still needs some help but he's ahead in other areas (like holding his own bottle). It's just so amazing how different they are. We have started taking them out somewhere every weekend just to get a change of scenery. We hear, "my you guys have your hands full" everywhere we go. Yes, I guess we do but honestly we don't know any different so it's not that bad at all. Yes, the first 6 weeks or so were rough but they are interactive now and so much fun. Sorry I haven't updated more, things are a bit busy around here:)
Married 9/16/06 dx with cancer 10/06 Started TTC 6/07 Visited RE 12/07 IVF suggested 1/08 dx: bilateral hydrosalpinx (both tubes blocked) 4/08 Tubes removed 5/08 IVF #1: June 2008 IVF #2: July 2008 IVF #3: 4 frozen embies June 2009: begin 5 rounds of chemotherapy FET: March 2010
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.I have learned to appreciate life.Yes, I will be a wonderful mother."