Happy Thanksgiving...I'm not bitter

As I sit here after our wonderful Thanksgiving dinner I am pondering the things that I am thankful for in my life. Of course, I would not be as strong as I am right now without my amazing family and DH.

I do sit here on days like today and tend to have more of a pity party than normal. There are lots of things that I am NOT grateful for. I am not happy that I have to deal with all the shit that life seems to throw my way. I have now dealt with cancer and IF. It was one things to be infertile and have to do IVF, I was fine with that. But now, I am dealing with the possibility that I cannot have my own biological child and may have to use donor eggs. I know that a child through donor eggs would "technically" be my own but I am really having issues with this lately. Why does God do this to people? How is this fair to anyone to be IF?

OK, I digress...thanks you for listening to me vent and it really does help knowing that you've all been there at one time or another and that we are allowed to have pity parties once in awhile.

I'm going to go have another drink;)