Today's post is not about IF, how bad it sucks, or anything like that. Today's post is an appreciation of my life and the wonderful friends and family I have.
Today I got news that another girl my age (30) passed away from cancer. I had been communicating with this girl since her diagnosis 10 months ago. Her cancer spread to all her internal organs and just before Thanksgiving she made the choice to stop her chemo and enjoy what was left of her life. I don't blame her and she got to spend the holidays with her friends and family without being sick from the chemo.
Words can't even describe what emotions I am feeling right now. Yes, I am sitting here crying because I am so sad for her DH, her family, her friends. It isn't fair. Why should someone so young have to be taken away? Why is cancer everywhere? Why isn't there a cure? I guess this might be harder for me than for others because I am a cancer survivor. I went in today for my CT scan with the confidence that my cancer has not come back. I am so hopeful that it hasn't, but today just shows that cancer doesn't care how old you are or if you have family that loves you. Cancer fucking sucks!
To everyone who reads this: Appreciate the people you have in your life because you never know when something may happen. I am so grateful for everything and everyone in my life.
The last first day of school
2 weeks ago
3 comments:
So sorry about your friend. How sad.
Yes, sometimes I feel like I am wishing my life away with the whole IF thing. I am trying to get better about it.
Hoping for great scan results!
I am so sorry to hear about your friend. I was thinking of you today, I hope all of your testing comes out OK.
Thinking of you! :)
I just saw your post on your other blog from 1/6. I am so sorry. I hope everything comes back as clean and clear and you can finally move on with your life cancer free. It is just so unfair.
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