To Fight or not to fight.??

*Warning, this post could be a bit of a downer*

So after we had a little to drink on Christmas Day my mom tells me that my dad thinks that I am not being very realistic about my cancer possibly coming back. For those of you that don't know, I was diagnosed with cancer in my neck in 2006 (2 weeks after my wedding to be exact!). I had the tumor removed and had radiation therapy and everything has been fine. I had a routine PET scan in October and a lymph node showed up on my scan. They weren't too worried about it but wanted to do a biopsy just to make sure. Well, when they did a CT to see exactly where it was they realized they couldn't get to it w/o cracking my chest open (it's behind my lungs next to my aorta). Sooo, I have to have another CT next month to see if it was just my body fighting off an infection or if it has gotten bigger and they will in fact have to go in and remove it and biopsy it.

Anyway, my dad tells my mom this (they aren't married anymore) and my mom says that I am so positive and that I give her strength. Well last night I am thinking about what my dad said and wondering if I have the strength to fight the cancer if it's come back. Oh hell, I know I will but I just feel like I keep getting shit on no matter what I do or how positive I am. Here comes the why me...
I just feel like I had the cancer and then I'm IF, it's not just infertile that I have to do IVF, it's that my freaking eggs SUCK and don't want to do what they're supposed do. How much shit can one person go through and still stay strong??

Thanks for listening to my rant. Don't worry I'm not suicidal or anything, just frustrated!