I've asked my DH and he assures me that no matter what, he wants a baby with me, even if that means that he has to raise it (them) on his own (with the help of our parents of course). I know that's a hard thing for a lot to digest, but it's something very realistic that we've had to talk about and digest.
I have to assume that if God does not want me to have a baby, he will not allow these frozen embies to implant. For now, my oncologist has emailed my RE and decided that I am OK to have a baby!!!
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Gosh Meghan...I don't know...that is a lot to think about and digest and it's not even MY decision to make.
I had 6 yrs of infertility and once I did have Matthew I used to have thoughts that "what if" I died before he turned 18? Who would raise him (besides his dad)? Would they do all the things that I wanted to do with and for him?
I realized that I couldn't keep living in fear. Fear is NOT of God, so to keep replaying that over and over in my mind is direct disrespect to God.
I finally bought a beautiful mom to son card and wrote all my feelings and love for him and it says on the envelope, "Do not open until March 19, 2012." That's the day he'll turn 18.
I understand your worries and concerns about your health/cancer, etc, but Meghan, NONE OF US are promised "tomorrow." None of us are promised our next breath except through God's divine mercy and power.
James 4:13-15
13Come now, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit."
14Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away.
15Instead, you ought to say, "If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that."
I think you and DH have a good attitude about it and just you thinking outside of yourself is being UNSELFISH! <3
God bless you sister! Patty
Search for wisdom as you would search for silver or hidden treasure. Then you will understand what it means to respect and to know the LORD God. - Proverbs 2:4-5
Peppermint Patty said it so eloquently, but it is true that none of us is promised tomorrow. I have the same fears and I've never even had a major health crisis (maybe that's why I'm so scared- it has to catch up to me eventually... right?). It is not selfish to want to have a baby with the person you love, no matter the circumstances.
So keeping my fingers crossed for you and DH!!!
I agree that PP said it well. None of us are guaranteed a tomorrow. Plus, thinking about it from a child's perspective...would they rather not exist at all or exist and enjoy all the time they came with their wonderful mommy?
I have lots of faith that you will live a long and healthy life...what if you look back 20 years from now and kick yourself for not trying for that baby?
I give you a ton of credit for thinking about all of this, though, and that in itself proves you aren't being selfish. I know you are going to be an amazing mommy and I just think any child will be blessed to call you mom!!
Wow. That is A LOT to think about and I am not sure that I am in any way qualified to give any advice. However, while reading your post I kept thinking "Live for today". Besides that...you would make an incredible mom!
Oh sweetie...I know you have to consider this possibility (you not having the normal life expectation as others your age), but there are so many things that can happen in life that you have to make the most of it when you have the opportunity. What about having an accident? Or an aneurysm? Or a heart attack? Of course you would see these as a less likely possibility for a healthy person, still it does happen. Death strikes at random, mostly. I'm sure it's hard for your husband to think about the possibility of losing you sooner than expected, but science does make progresses (not fast enough I know), you have to live in the present and not projecting too far into the future. Your oncologist said your are ok to be a mom, that's what matters! you are in my heart and thoughts. Love, Fran
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