Evolution of AF

As she graced me with her presence yesterday I began to think of how I have viewed this monthly visitor as the years have gone by.

Age 15:
So glad to be "normal" and finally get my period and go through puberty.

Ages 18-27
Prayed every month that she would come and prove that I was not pregnant.

Ages 28-29
Hoping she wouldn't come so it would prove I would be pregnant

Age 30 (NOW)
Just annoyed all around. Why do I even have a period when I am infertile and can't have my own children? My RE says my FSH and AMH are so high that my eggs are completely shot and there really isn't a chance of me being able to use my own eggs for pregnancy. To top it all off, in the last few months I have been curled up in the fetal position with a heating pad on my stomach the cramps have been so bad the first day.

Note to my body: either go through menopause or let me use my own eggs, but don't torture me with a period every month and not produce quality eggs. It's just not fair.