I might get my wish for no periods but it's not in the way I want but the saying goes, "Beggers can't be choosers."
I had an appointment with my oncologist this afternoon. I asked if I was crazy to want to do chemo when there is no tumor to monitor. He told me I wasn't and that this was probably the best option for me since my cancer has already spread once. When talking to him we talked about the options with infertility . He said (in nice terms) that since my eggs are already shot there was really no point in putting off chemo. I gave him the number to my RE(who's not too keen on the IVF with my own eggs) to talk about options. After chemo I will most likely go through a temporary menopause for anywhere from six months to two years. After that it's not advised to carry a baby for 3-5 years...OMG, I will be 36 years old!!!
So I guess I am getting my wish of going through menopause after all, I just didn't think that chemo would be what would make it happen.
My DH and I have talked briefly about out options for a baby. He's not so open for adoption right now and to be honest with the cost of it all, I'm not sure I am either. Do we accept the fact that we might never have kids? I know we have a lot of shit to deal with my health first but it's always in the back to my mind (babies).
The last first day of school
2 weeks ago
3 comments:
Oh sweetie. I wish your road wasn't full of curves and speedbumps. I hate that you've been faced with so much and now you might even have to wait years to have a baby.
This is so unfair. It sounds like you're in good spirits though (but understand that might change daily) and just know that I'm here if you ever need a shoulder. ((HUGS))
Oh sweetie - I wish this road was easier for you...Dont give up - as we all know there are people who get pregnant at 40 - what you need to do like you said is take care of your health - we want you to be ok!!! And then after that - we cant wait to see....PLease continue to share your journey with us - we are vertainly all routing for you!!
As I said through our texts... this blows. But, YOU have to be #1right now becasue your future babies are going to need you healthy for a long, long time. I agree that you're better safe than sorry with the Big C, I just wish you didn't have to go through this. I'm here every step of the way. We'll get you that baby(ies) somehow! xoxo.
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