As I was searching for this picture I realized there is a much more up to date version with a newer cover and cuter person on the front. Has it been that long since I started TTC? It reminded me of how full of hope I was when I started this journey. I remember looking at the pregnancy symptoms and being convinced I was indeed pregnant. Oh how times have changed. To tell you the truth, it didn't even phase me to see the book (maybe it did since I'm blogging about it). I am so numb to everything now and know this isn't "my time" and I've accepted that.
I've started looking into adoption and what it entails. I have talked more to DH about it and he seems a little more open that before so that's good. I used Andrea's approach that she suggested which is tell him we should start the adoption process now and then when I can carry a baby (3-5 years after chemo) we can do DE. He's mulling it over:) I know I will become a mom at some point in my life, I just wish it could be now when everyone else has the little ones for them to play with...oh well!
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Ugh...I don't have that book, but the other day I found a book on PCOS that I bought when the RE told me that's what I had (before CD 3 bloodwork). Not that PCOS is a walk in the park, but I would give ANYTHING to have that and not POF!!
I'm glad your DH is slowly opening up to at least considering adoption. That's great! I'll bet he'll come around eventually, he just needs time to get used to the idea. Someone brought up a good point online yesterday about birth mothers being more likely to choose younger couples, so I think you'd have a great chance of getting chosen as parents :)
I wish more than anything you could get PG now, too, but I'm glad you're going to kick cancer's ass forever first! It will be worth it in the long run. I am VERY excited for your upcoming cycle, though, and let's hope you won't need DE down the road!!
((HUGS))
Eeeww. I have that stupid book. Gross. Now, if I ever do get pregnant, it is the LAST book I would want to buy or read. I will never go back to 'what to expect' for a reading choice...because I am now so educated on 'what to expect' I could write my own stinking book...which would read: EXPECT NOTHING!!!
I'm feeling you on the adoption thing...I've started looking into it more and more...there's just something about planning ahead that feels right.
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