Bromelin tablets (2/day): starting 2 days before transfer and up to 5dp3dt
POM juice: starting day of transfer until 5dp3dt
Fish Oil: 2/day every day
Vitamin E: 1/day(STOP AS SOON AS YOU GET BFP)
Acupuncture: right before and right after transfer
Meditation: daily
IVF Stats
IVF #1: June 2008 Long Lupron Canceled due to poor response to protocol
IVF #2: July 2008 Microdose Lupron Canceled due to poor response to protocol
IVF #3: June 2009 Antagonist Estrogen Priming DHEA supplements 4 embies frozen **what I did different for IVF #3: 75 mg/day of DHEA & 7 wheatgrass pills/day (for at least 4 months prior)
FET: March 2010 2/17/10: Start estrogen patches 3/2/10: lining check (lining at 9) 3/5/10: transferred 3 embryos (B+ grade, 6, 7, & 8 cell) 3/13/10: + HPT (8dp3dt) 3/16/10: Beta #1 282 (11dp3dt) 3/18/10: Beta #2 817 (13dp3dt) 4/5/10: u/s: not 1, not 2, but 3 babies
Married 9/16/06 dx with cancer 10/06 Started TTC 6/07 Visited RE 12/07 IVF suggested 1/08 dx: bilateral hydrosalpinx (both tubes blocked) 4/08 Tubes removed 5/08 IVF #1: June 2008 IVF #2: July 2008 IVF #3: 4 frozen embies June 2009: begin 5 rounds of chemotherapy FET: March 2010
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.I have learned to appreciate life.Yes, I will be a wonderful mother."
2 comments:
Yay! And Amen to the not seeing any other issues! My thoughts exactly!
Fingers crossed for you...can't wait for the update.
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