Daycare Ramblings

For the most part, I really like to consider myself a positive person. Granted, there are things that get me down but overall I look at the up side of things. Maybe it's all the hormones racing inside me (I'm sure it is) but in the last day or so I have been a weeping mess. I am so scared how we are going to manage financially. Everyone keeps saying you will do what you have to do. I get that and I know we will, but that doesn't help me feel any better right now. I think the biggest thing is child care.

WTF?? It is so freaking expensive.

I plan to go back to work in January. My MIL has said she will watch the babies two days a week. My mom said she can watch them one day a week. OK, so that's three days, what about the other two? No daycare is going to have an opening for THREE infants. So I began to look into a nanny...OK the going rate is about $15/hour. We can do that if it's for two days/week. So that might solve the issue from January to May when we are off for the summer. Now, what about the next year? I know I am getting ahead of myself but that's how I think. I need to have some sort of a plan.

There comes a point financially when going to work isn't even worth the money but as I've said before, I WANT to work. I NEED to work. Plus, I don't think we could survive on my DH's teaching salary alone. I could go part time but that would mean I would lose tenure and have to pay OOP for my health care benefits. It's just too much to think about right now.

I know we will make it work, there is no other option. For now though, I worry.

Thanks for listening.