Random Photos

Just going through some pics off my camera and wanted to share some...hope you have a great Memorial Day weekend...be safe!

What an odd couple...


Saw this T-shit today at Walmart and couldn't resist.


Flower in my garden...I'm turning into such a green thumb (this one was already planted (LOL)

Why do they stress me out?

First, thanks to all you who gave me words of encouragement. I am going through with the IVF cycle as planned and I hate my oncologists' nurses. When my IVF nurse says they are bitches (not in those words) and very unprofessional, I have a big problem. They got their stupid note to go through with the ER. Now they are worried about the anesthesia aspect of it. Are you f-ing kidding? I have cancer, that's all, I can handle anesthesia. They want me to have a special consult to make sure it's OK. Umm, I'm not paying for that, plain and simple and I'll take the risks associated with it. What could possibly happen, I get cancer?? HA! Hey if I can't joke about it I'll never make it.

So the plan is to stick to the plan...yeah, I know, confusing.

UGGGGHHH

I am so frustrated right now. I told my IVF nurse that I wouldn't be transferring embies like we have wanted because of the mass in my chest. Now they need another fucking note from my oncologist to say it's OK to stimulate me with this mass. I get they're covering their ass but they already have a note from them saying it's OK why do they need another. Plus, I already have all the damn drugs (almost $4000 worth)...don't even tell me I can't go through with this or you will see a crazy bitch and I am not kidding. To think all this rage and I haven't even started the clomid...yikes.

I'll keep you updated.

My Cancer is back...AGAIN

3rd time's a charm??

Once again, my cancer has returned. For those keeping track, this is 3 times. My CT scan from Monday showed a mass in my chest about 5 inches lower than where they took the tumor in January. This tumor is already 2cm X 1cm, which seems to be growing fairly quick since it didn't show up at all on my March PET or January CT. I met with my radiation oncologist this afternoon (he got me in when he looked at my scan so I didn't have to wait until Monday).

I will call to make an appointment with my medical oncologist on Monday but as of right now, the plan is do not do surgery but to start with the chemo this summer. With a tumor, we can now track how well the chemo is working (a positive). I will know more specific details like when I start when I meet with my oncologist.

It's never easy to hear you have cancer once, and twice is a shock, this time, I guess I expected it. I knew another tumor would pop up eventually since it is in my blood stream but I guess I didn't think it would be this quick. Oh well, now I fight like hell once again and I think this is going to be the toughest fight so far.

So now we will freeze embies (if we get any) instead of transferring ;(

Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.

Keep Going

My RE said to continue with our plan and I will start taking Estrace tonight. This will prevent me from getting any follies until I am stimulated. I am so relieved.

SHIT

AF is here...

I have a call into my IVF nurse to see what we do now since I cannot start my Estrace tonight now that she's come. WTF?? I have had normal cycles my entire life and now that it counts it is all messed up. I just hope that there's a reason for this. Maybe God knows that I would do better w/o the Estrace and that's why the day I'm supposed to start it I get my period. I just don't know what the RE will say as to what to do now.

Stay away AF

This might be TMI but I am starting to have discharge like I'm getting my period....crap! I can't get my period yet, it's not time! If I start my period now that means we won't be able to do the "estrogen priming" and we will have to go with just a regular cycle. I called my nurse and she said she thinks it's nothing and calmed me down but I'm still worried.

Com on body, you're doing so well. Don't start AF yet, wait a least a week so I can start my Estrace.

I talked to my IVF nurse about my huge jump in AMH and told her about the wheat grass and DHEA and she is amazed...I love stumping the pros:) I seem to do it so well:)