Slight freak out

Just as DH and I are preparing the meds for tonight's injections we were saying how good we were getting at this. I inject my Gonal F and all was well.. I go to get the needle from DH with Menopur in it and he's trying to get the air bubble out of the top but there's fluid coming out and I don't want to waste the meds so I decide to inject it anyway. I inject it and it burns, but it's Menopur and it does that, and then I get to the air bubble and it feels 'weird' going in. DH proceeds to tell me that it's not good that I injected the air bubble and that it could be dangerous. Well too fucking late now, it's already done. We proceed to yell at each other about how I didn't listen to him and how he's not helping the situation. I know this is just stress of IF but I hate that we argue about stupid shit like this. I know it's fine, probably not the best, with the air bubble but I'm not going to die (I googled it:).

Thanks for listening to my rant.

So far so...

good, I guess. I'm taking all my meds as directed and not feeling any s/e of Clomid or the other hormones which is good (mainly for my DH). I had to drive across Denver today to pick up two vials of Menopur that I need for tonight's injections and the rest will come via overnight mail tomorrow. I was shocked though when I went to the RE's office to get them that they were only $52 each. Umm, I pay $57 through the online pharmacy which is supposed to be the best price. Apparently not! I spent another $600 today on Menopur. This shit is getting expensive when I'm taking 3 vials a night. Now when I have the Gonal F hook-up I don't need to take as much as I did last time. Dang it!

Hopefully it will all be worth it. I can't believe I could be having an ER one week from today!

U/S still set for Wed.

First Day: check

I am please to say that my first night of shots, clomid, and dexamethasone are complete! Here I thought I was an old pro at giving shots and I was so freaking nervous it was ridiculous. I wish we had a video of me and DH getting everything prepared last night...priceless.

I got a hold of my nurse and she's ordered 2 vials of Menopur for me to pick up at their pharmacy (40 minute drive Monday) and then the rest will be ordered from Ascend and be here Tuesday. That was a little too much stress dealing with that than I would've liked but oh well it's all figured out now. BTW, I hate dealing with mixing Menopur (we mix 3 vials/night), it's such a pain so I've given the task to DH who hates it just as much ;)

Here's the meds currently taking each night:
Clomid 100mg (2 tab)
Dexamethasone 2 (2 tab)
Gonal F 225 IU
Menopur 225 IU (3 amps + 1 cc water)

Monitoring u/s is scheduled for Wed. @ 7:45 AM.

Meds, Meds, and more Meds

These are just some of the meds I'll be taking. I went through and made sure I had everything and good thing I did because I am supposed to take 3 vials of Menopur every night and I only have 10 vials...umm, not enough for 7-10 days of stims. The thing that sucks the worst is that's the most expensive med out of all of them and I need to get more...great! I have a call into my IVF nurse to let her know.

My appointment this afternoon went fine. Had an injection teaching (more of a refresher course), an u/s, and E2 b/w. RE said everything looked good to start...waiting on the E2 level.

Bring on the shots (medical not alcohol):)

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

I can't believe that I have my baseline u/s and injection teaching tomorrow and start stims tomorrow night. I have done the injections enough to know what to do but could use a refresher, especially the Menopur that I have to mix. I'm glad my DH will be with me so we have an extra set of ears. My follow up u/s and b/w is scheduled for Wed. and right after that I have an oncology appointment, what a different perspective:)

PRAY for follies.
PRAY for embies.

I think I'll have my last glass of wine tonight before I start stims, after all I do have things to celebrate. We're done with school, my numbers look great, I'm going to rid this cancer of my body once and for all, and I am loved.

NUGGETS, NUGGETS

Let's go, kick some Laker A$$

Getting closer...

I cannot believe that on Friday I am going to start injecting myself again with all sorts of drugs. I am taking the Estrace and don't really notice any difference with the exception of increased CM. It just doesn't seem real that this is happening, any of it. I am prepared that if we don't get any embies that this will be our last shot with my own eggs since the chemo will pretty much wipe out everything that's remotely good in my body.

My RE's office wants me to have a consult with an anesthesiologist to make sure that it's safe to sedate me for my ER. I have freaking cancer, knock my ass out and let me enjoy it. I understand they are trying to cover their butt but come on, they are being ridiculous. I wouldn't have so much of a problem with it if I didn't have to pay OOP for the consult...yeah that's the shitty part and I'm not having it. I was supposed to hear back from my RE's office today as to if they were going to "make" me do it or not and haven't heard anything so I'm not going to push it. I see them on Friday anyway for my baseline u/s and injection teaching (3rd time's a charm right?).

Best news so far...I am done with school this week! I don't have kids tomorrow and Thursday is our last day! YAHOO! They are lucky they don't have to deal with me on clomid and everything else;)