Monitoring Appt. #2

Let me start off by saying my stomach was a wreck last night and this morning before my appointment.

We got to the RE's office and my own RE saw me and did my u/s which is nice because I haven't seen him since I started this cycle. I told him that my cyst was bothering me and he said he'd make sure and drain it when they did the ER. WHEN, not IF! So the 10 follies are doing their thing, some still slow but they are growing and that's all I can ask for. I have two follies on the left that are over 14 so tonight I am starting to inject Ganirelex to make sure I don't ovulate on my own. I am also upping my meds to 300 IU of Gonal F since Ganirelex is a suppression drug. I have several follies on the right that are now over 10, so that's good but they are just over 12 so we want them to grow a bit more. I think I have 2-3 that are still at 7 or 8 but that's OK.

I have another monitoring appointment on Monday at 11:15 am and that night we'll probably do the trigger shot. He said I would have an ER Wednesday or Thursday!! He's going to go ahead and retrieve whatever I have since I'm starting the chemo next week. An EGG RETRIEVAL, did you hear that everyone?? HOLY MOLY!

I'll update with my E2 when I know it.

GROW FOLLIES, GROW!

EDIT: E2 is 560!!!!

All or Nothing

I am so nervous about tomorrow morning's appointment. This one really is make or break. If we don't have growing follies, we're done. I hate to be so what seems like negative, but I have to get on with chemo and getting this cancer gone.

If you have any extra prayers, please say them for me that we get some follies and get to do an ER early next week.

Thanks!

Only have 2 days available for ER

In getting ready to start chemo on the 15th, I'm sure you can imagine how many appointments I'm going to have. Normally my RE does egg retrievals on Monday, Tuesday, or Wednesdays. I know mine won't be on Monday because I have a monitoring appointment on Saturday and that wouldn't be enough time to give the HSG shot (which is OK because we're going to a chemo class on Monday morning). The class is a what to expect...rather funny since I would rather be learning how to become a mother, not a cancer patient.

The nurse thinks more like Tuesday or Wednesday...which is fine. IF, I happen to need longer I'm not sure what I will do. I have a PET scan scheduled for next Friday and I have to get my chemo port put in on Thursday so that really doesn't leave me any other time. DH has a football camp to go to, which I wish he wouldn't but I won't ask him to miss, so I'm going to be doing most of these things (with the exception of the ER because he has to be there) on my own. He offered to not go to his camp but he said it in the way that husbands do when they really want to go and want your blessing, you know what I mean?

I don't mind going to things alone, but my chemo port I won't be able to drive because I'll be sedated so I have to ask my mom. Just another pain in the ass for me...oh well, I'll live.

Thanks for listening to yet another rant.

Monitoring Appt. #1

I have five follicles less than 10 on both ovaries, that's 10 freaking eggs I could have. My IVF nurse was very pleased with this number. I am still very skeptical because of the fact that this is the way they've started out all other times too and then never grown. I start taking Estrace again tonight so that should help my E2 levels and get those follies growing. She was a little concerned about the cyst on my let side that I've had forever...it's 42X41 (HUGE). She said she was worried about not getting anything from that side but then saw I had 5 follies over there so was a little relieved. I just wish they would've drained it before since I've had it and they continue to see it.

Continue on the meds I am taking and my next monitoring appointment (the true test) is Saturday at 8:45 am.

UPDATE: nurse just called and my E2 is 112....this is the highest it's ever been at this point, normally I'm around 70 and she said I had 6 more follicles than I ever have too.

Cha Ching

Just got 12 vials of Menopur in a package on my doorstep...$706.00 later...HOLY CRAP! I'm scared to think of how much I've spent on meds this cycle. It's over $3000 that's for sure. YIKES!

Slight freak out

Just as DH and I are preparing the meds for tonight's injections we were saying how good we were getting at this. I inject my Gonal F and all was well.. I go to get the needle from DH with Menopur in it and he's trying to get the air bubble out of the top but there's fluid coming out and I don't want to waste the meds so I decide to inject it anyway. I inject it and it burns, but it's Menopur and it does that, and then I get to the air bubble and it feels 'weird' going in. DH proceeds to tell me that it's not good that I injected the air bubble and that it could be dangerous. Well too fucking late now, it's already done. We proceed to yell at each other about how I didn't listen to him and how he's not helping the situation. I know this is just stress of IF but I hate that we argue about stupid shit like this. I know it's fine, probably not the best, with the air bubble but I'm not going to die (I googled it:).

Thanks for listening to my rant.

So far so...

good, I guess. I'm taking all my meds as directed and not feeling any s/e of Clomid or the other hormones which is good (mainly for my DH). I had to drive across Denver today to pick up two vials of Menopur that I need for tonight's injections and the rest will come via overnight mail tomorrow. I was shocked though when I went to the RE's office to get them that they were only $52 each. Umm, I pay $57 through the online pharmacy which is supposed to be the best price. Apparently not! I spent another $600 today on Menopur. This shit is getting expensive when I'm taking 3 vials a night. Now when I have the Gonal F hook-up I don't need to take as much as I did last time. Dang it!

Hopefully it will all be worth it. I can't believe I could be having an ER one week from today!

U/S still set for Wed.