Bonuses of chemo

How said is it that I have to come look at my blog to see when my last AF was? That's exactly what I had to do today:) Looks like June 21st so either she'll come soon or maybe she won't. One of the s/e of chemo is that I may go into menopause for months or possible even years. My thought on that is HELL YEAH, if I have to go through this shit at least give me some sort of bonus. Another bonus...weight loss. I've lost over 12 lbs since I started chemo...I figure if I keep this rate up, I will lose about 30 lbs when it's all said and done, and I eat whatever I want...gotta love it. Nothing like chemo to get off some stubborn weight:)

Hey, I've got to look at the positives:)

Chemo Shower

My mom is so awesome and threw me a chemo shower on Sunday where there was tons of food and people brought me presents...who doesn't love presents? I got so many scarves and hats ass well as things to keep me occupied during chemo session #2. The best gift I go was a punching bag from my mom and step-dad.

I can't type much because I'm really tired but here's a pic of the punching bag!

Bald

I am officially bald. I shaved my head last night because I couldn't deal with how much hair was falling out. It was so hard but I'm OK with it now and think I look ok without hair:)

So here's a couple pics of the event.





there are tears under those eyes


ignore the hair all over me


FINAL PRODUCT

Clumps of hair

My hair has officially started to fall out. Even though I expected it it's still hard to see clumps of hair in my hand when I take a shower. I'm ready for it and have my wig all ready to go and some cute ass hats waiting.

Still in the hospital and probably will be until Sunday or Monday. My white blood cells are going up though, slowly but surely, "stop calling me Shirley"-LOL. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

Chemo sucks

For those that don't follow my cancer blog, I've been in the hospital since Wednesday night with a fever. When you do chemotherapy your white blood cells drop to near nothing so you can't fight off infection so any fever over 100.4 degrees is a must to the ER. My fever was 102.5 on Wednesday so we went to the ER. Until my white blood cells go back up, I'm here at the hospital. I feel OK and my fever is down but I'm just too susceptible to infection for them to let me go home.

Doubling beta prayers go out to Bella when she goes in for her 2nd beta tomorrow morning.

Random Ramblings

So today is Father's Day, as all of us infertiles know. And today, I am really at peace with my infertility. I asked DH if he felt better about our IF now that we had babies on ice and he said he did, which is so nice to hear. This has been something we've been struggling with for over two years now. At times he blamed me, it is my tubes and eggs that suck, but that still doesn't make it easier. We have banded together to make a very solid couple that I am now proud of. Yes, we still have our issues but with all the shit we've been through in our 3 short years of marriage or our 5 years of being together, we've made it and we're stronger because of it.

Today is also the first day of summer. I love summer. Even though all the shit I have to go through this year really does suck, I do love this time if year. My birthday is at the end of July, as well as DH's bday and we enjoy celebrating it together. I realized the other day that I will be getting chemo on my birthday this year...not fun but I truly am blessed to be here on this earth.

On another note, I got AF today and man is she pissed. All these fertility drugs have whomped on my system and it's not pretty (sorry if TMI).

Hope you enjoyed your weekend with your DH.

Cade Anthony is here...

On Friday my friend was induced with her baby boy.
Here are some pics of before and after the baby was born. Click on the pics to make them bigger.

Congrats Carri & Evan