Bald

I am officially bald. I shaved my head last night because I couldn't deal with how much hair was falling out. It was so hard but I'm OK with it now and think I look ok without hair:)

So here's a couple pics of the event.





there are tears under those eyes


ignore the hair all over me


FINAL PRODUCT

Clumps of hair

My hair has officially started to fall out. Even though I expected it it's still hard to see clumps of hair in my hand when I take a shower. I'm ready for it and have my wig all ready to go and some cute ass hats waiting.

Still in the hospital and probably will be until Sunday or Monday. My white blood cells are going up though, slowly but surely, "stop calling me Shirley"-LOL. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

Chemo sucks

For those that don't follow my cancer blog, I've been in the hospital since Wednesday night with a fever. When you do chemotherapy your white blood cells drop to near nothing so you can't fight off infection so any fever over 100.4 degrees is a must to the ER. My fever was 102.5 on Wednesday so we went to the ER. Until my white blood cells go back up, I'm here at the hospital. I feel OK and my fever is down but I'm just too susceptible to infection for them to let me go home.

Doubling beta prayers go out to Bella when she goes in for her 2nd beta tomorrow morning.

Random Ramblings

So today is Father's Day, as all of us infertiles know. And today, I am really at peace with my infertility. I asked DH if he felt better about our IF now that we had babies on ice and he said he did, which is so nice to hear. This has been something we've been struggling with for over two years now. At times he blamed me, it is my tubes and eggs that suck, but that still doesn't make it easier. We have banded together to make a very solid couple that I am now proud of. Yes, we still have our issues but with all the shit we've been through in our 3 short years of marriage or our 5 years of being together, we've made it and we're stronger because of it.

Today is also the first day of summer. I love summer. Even though all the shit I have to go through this year really does suck, I do love this time if year. My birthday is at the end of July, as well as DH's bday and we enjoy celebrating it together. I realized the other day that I will be getting chemo on my birthday this year...not fun but I truly am blessed to be here on this earth.

On another note, I got AF today and man is she pissed. All these fertility drugs have whomped on my system and it's not pretty (sorry if TMI).

Hope you enjoyed your weekend with your DH.

Cade Anthony is here...

On Friday my friend was induced with her baby boy.
Here are some pics of before and after the baby was born. Click on the pics to make them bigger.

Congrats Carri & Evan

Don't have much to say

I come on here often to check how everyone is doing but don't really have much to say about IF right now. If you're interested in following my cancer blog, please email me at elephantmeg@juno.com and I'll send you the link. I update my cancer blog pretty frequently as to what's happening with my treatments etc.

Know that I'm thinking of you all often and check on you regularly.

Where was I?

Apprantly a man in Florida tried to sell or trade his 6 month old baby on craigs.list. Umm, I'll take it:) But seriously, who does that? Once again, life is not fair and some people should not have children.

I'm off to drink myself into a stupor before starting chemo on Monday...
Have a good one.