We're Back

DH and I had a great time...here are a few pics.

Wine Tasting in N.apa

Hope you all had a great Christmas!!

Save your Receipts

I think I have finally gotten the $400 bill from the RE's office taken care of but not until I made LOTS of phone calls. I keep all my receipts for everything medical, mainly to write them off for taxes, but a note to everyone out there...SAVE ALL YOUR MEDICAL RECEIPTS and fight anything you aren't sure of. I would've paid $400 that I didn't owe if I hadn't checked into it.

Another Surgery

On January 8th I will be having another surgery to remove the latest tumor in my chest. This one is pretty scary. It appears to be attached to aorta and they won't know how serious the surgery will need to be until they get in there. Good thing is that I changed health insurance companies so I don't have to fight with K.aiser to go to the best doctors, they are now covered. The tumor seems to be dead from the chemo but there's again no way to be sure until they take it out.

In other news, my good friend just told me she was pregnant today. She is 12 weeks and her and her DH were separated less than a year ago...it was a "we weren't NOT trying" baby but they are happy to be pregnant. I am OK with it and knew it was coming but uggh.

Monday my DH and I are headed to San Fransisco for a much deserved and anticipated vacation...we're SOOOOO excited!

It was nice while it lasted

It has been six months.
I knew there was a chance but all the Dr's said it wasn't likely.

In case you haven't guessed, AF showed up this morning. Let me just say that shocked is not an adequate description of how I was feeling when I saw that. Because of the chemo, I have not had a period since June. I would say that is one of the biggest pluses of chemo. My oncologist and everything online said that if you stop menstruating it's not very likely to come back. They did say that I was young so it was more likely with me. I honestly didn't think it would happen though because my reproductive system sucks as it is. Guess I am one of the lucky ones:)

In other news, my hair is growing back quickly and I think pretty soon I won't need to wear a hat or scarf anymore.

Our trip to San Fransisco is coming up soon and I couldn't be more excited. It will be me and my DH for 5 days in San Fran over the Christmas holiday...YAY!!

Thankful

Here are a few things I am thankful for this Thanksgiving.
1. My DH
2. My family & friends
3. health insurance (even though they don't pay for shit re: IF)
4. the amazing people I have met on this IF journey
5. My life...an amazing thing when you're dealing with a 3rd recurrence of cancer.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING, may you and yours thoroughly enjoy the holiday.

Amazing

I decided it would be cool to do one of those cluster maps (located on the right of the page). I saw it on Fran's blog and thought, what the heck. Let me just say that I am amazed that I have that many people from all over the world that follow, or at least check in on, my blog. If you don't have this, I highly suggest doing it as you would be amazed. Here I thought I was just writing down me feelings and maybe 15-20 people checked in on me. Thanks to whoever you are out there even if you're just a lurker, it really means a lot.

Why?

Why is it that people who don't want kids get pregnant?

Why is it that a woman who sells her five y/o daughter to be a sex slave is now pregnant with another baby?

Why is it that a couple we know who has severe money issues, is pregnant again?

There are so many other why's...

As my DH just said, "Poor doesn't stop sperm," and I said, "Money doesn't make babies either." We've learned all too well both of these.